No excuses! That’s something that has been engrained in me and I refuse to make them today.
I have not done well in the last two weeks and I will admit that I have gotten a good scare by the scale which means that I need to put some things back in perspective. I have to have more self control when it comes to this change, more honesty when it comes to amounts and what it is that I am eating. I figured that if I worked out, I could indulge. Part of that is true! Working out does give a LITTLE room for indulging but not overwhelming amounts of it. Herein lies my personal battle. On one side, I am saying to myself: that’s fine, you can have that. On the other side: you can’t out-exercise a poor diet.
Ahhhh the “other side” is right. No matter how much I work out, I will always be trying to get over the hump if I don’t change the way that I look at allowing myself to indulge. Indugling cannot be highlight out of my week and it also cannot be more than the healthier options that I have. I have to be able to look at myself and not let the scale define me but solely a benchmark that puts things back in perspective.
I refuse to lose this battle. I have fought hard and I have seen the changes that can happen, I know that I can do better. It takes a different mindset and I know that I will have to look back on this post to remember what I said and how I felt on this day. Frustrated, annoyed, and a little disheartened but not defeated. I refuse to let this be my complete story. I will continue to encourage myself, view others and their transformations, and do what works for me.
Week one, I thought I MURDERED it. I went to the gym 3-4 times, did two activities instead of one some days, I cooked all of my meals (I deviated a little but I always made sure to eat breakfast and I stayed pretty close to my prep). Here is my downfall: I snacked more than I should have and I went out the night before I was supposed to weigh in at Weight Watchers. I hit the scale Saturday morning and there is was: 1.8 pounds….NOOOOO. All the work, prep. and planning felt like I hadn’t worked hard enough. All morning, I just kept thinking about the goal that I set for myself: 2lbs per week, 2 lbs…that’s it! Then I hit a reality check: I still lost weight! I still worked hard and there were results. It also was hardly far off from the amount of weight that I wanted to drop…so why was I so upset? Because when I set a goal, I like to beast that goal.
After that weigh in, I decided that I am not going to beat myself up, it is not right to do so because I am trying, I am physically getting up, I am trying to enjoy my life but I am also thinking about being happier, healthier and whole but I can’t do that if I am critical of the body that I have worked so hard to accept. The person that I have to look at every day in in the mirror. She is great and working hard to get to a healthier place on many levels.
Goals for week 2:
- 2 lbs this week!!
- Less deviating from the meal plan
- Sweets: limit the amount of sweets and drinking (I only had two margaritas and they were SWEEEET) a week. Do NOT over-indulge
- 4 days of activity. Even if it’s not the gym, do SOMETHING!
Have a good week all!
I haven’t posted in a while but during the time that I was away, there were several things that came to my mind and things that I have been thinking seriously about:
- I turn 26 next month, which is a blessing!
- I have accomplished quite a bit in my 25+ years on Earth and I am damn proud of that
- I will be started a new job soon and there is the possibility that there is going to be quite a bit of stress initially, which may throw me off. But I will be finally leaving the stress from this current job and move on happy and healthy.
- People share really beautiful comments about my weight loss, my appearance and my confidence that really warms my heart, especially because it took me quite a bit of time to appreciate all of the aforementioned things.
- Although the comments are wonderful, I am still not where I want to be as far as my weight loss. It is another thing on my list that I do not stay consistent with (the only major thing that I have been consistent with is school)
- Soooo I joined weight watchers….I am already not feeling it because I forgot how strict it was. But…it is something/someone to be accountable to every week besides myself. Being in the meeting started me thinking about goals. What weight loss goals would I like to accomplish both short and long term and that’s where I came up with the BIRTHDAY SLIM DOWN idea.
- I want to lose 2 pounds per week before my birthday, September 22nd (GO VIRGOS)! Which would mean that I needed to dot he following things:
- Meal prep and stick to it
- Limit food portions
- keep an accurate account of what is eaten
- gym 4-5 times per week with breaks so there isn’t burn out
- Water, water, water and more water!!
So we shall see but I want to feel better at 26 than I did at 25 and I want it to keep getting better, I want to age like a fine wine! 🙂